rant

So I was just reading perezhilton and theres a blog about how disney is giving Johnny Depp 55million dollars to do another pirates movie......
I don't have anything against him he's cool and hot but all that money for a movie
is full of shit to me. I mean couldn't all that money be used for something else, I don't know like helping poverty, aids. I mean there hasn't been alot of great movies in the first place out there, I havn't been excited for a movie since The Dark Knight and that came out awhile ago. I just don't get why some actors and actresses get paid 20mill a film, I mean I know some of them give back to charity and they also have to pay taxes but their still rich...And on top of that most of them probably are full of themselves and think their the shit when they really don't contribute much but entertain us...So maybe studios like disney, or dreamworks should think about giving the money to someone or something else, like helping out the homeless teens in america, shelters, animals, hospitals you know shit that actually matters instead of shelling out hella money to give to a fucking actor...but idk maybe they have given to charitys but who knows

i don't know

is this anxiety??
in a way anxiety is sort of like
obsession
maybe but if your worried about something
it can be taken as in your mind it can feel like
obsession
I know this is normal(maybe)

what the fuck is this?!?!?

justthinking.

So you ever see someone and you look at that person and think, "O he's cute"(or she, but in my situation its a he.) and then you sort of forget about them after you leave.But then you have to see that person again because their in the same class as you and on this particular day you learn something new about them, besides their name you think that it's interesting because you enjoy and like the same thing. Then you see that person in a different light because their right there, so its something about them. So in your head you establish him as a crush, but then you keep questioning yourself and thinking "is it just a crush, or something deeper"
your sort of anxious for the next meeting....especially as you type this.

This makes me believe in Change
it can happen
it must happen
But why am I not 100% sure
Can Obama make this country better

thoughts.

So people ask who are you dating?
I sometimes can't explain to people whats up.
But basically Im not the kind of girl who likes
to be all lovey dovey and kissing and hugging.
Yea most girls like the security of a relationship
but guess I'm not most girls. haha
I have never been in love before
I do say I love you to people but usually when I
say it, it's to friends who I actually care about.
I think I don't wanna be held down, but nothing.
So Ive said that If I were to get married and have
like 2 kids, and a 9 to 5 job I would be bored.
I love kids but I fear that I might neglect them.
I don't know what's in store for me when I get older
maybe one day I will decide to settle down, but I feel
now Im most comfortable just having guy friends that
Ive met and hanging out, I suppose that sounds
somewhat hoeish of me, But I don't know
I think that you should have as much fun as you
possibly can.... one day I'll think about settling down.

waiting.

Waiting is like poison.
It frustates and streeses.
Imaptience is like it's symptom.
Why wait?
For a person.
Or something to happen.
You wait for something
Or someone for hours, which
drags on to days, then eventually
years. But why wait?
Because your stupid.
You wait for something, but
does it ever come. No
Waiting is like a poison that attacks
the soul. Imaptience is like it's symptom
It sneeks upon you when least expecting.
It's stupid to Wait.